Submissive Wife and Cuckold

[MarkB]

Hi, 

I am 52 years old Cuckold with 46 years old wife, living in europe. I hope my english is understandable enough. Reason why i am writing here is that in my language it is more difficult to find people to discuss.

To me....since 5 years i share my wife. At the begin we searched both the man but now she searched and only she tells the rules for it. For example I have to drive her next time to get fucked.

The sexuality between of us is complete different. I am dominant and straight and she is submissive. She knows that it is good for me to get cucked and she is dominant or straight to me by fucking other men. In fact this always makes doubts in my brain, that she is only doing it for me.

At the one side i have the arguments that she knew by begin i like to share her and it was exciting for her to do it. Other argument she likes it is that she told me she likes to fuck other men and she doesn't like we stop this.

The argument for the doubts are that the cuckold side is submissive and shd told she loves my dominant side.

Any cuckold or hotwife in a similar situation to give a advice how to handle the situation?