Knew I was a Cuck the First Time I saw porn

[joe_b]

Hi everyone, name is Joe here 43 and my wife Susan is 30.  We have been together for about 5 years married about 3.5.

When I was a teenager I was friends with this other guy and his dad had a big collection of porn on VHS.  It was before the internet so getting your hands on real porn was quite hard.  His parents were not home and we were over his house and we started watching it.  I remember watching these women fucking in front of the camera and I was so turned on by them.  I went home and beat off to the thought of being married to woman who made porn and thought about how much I would enjoy being married to a woman who did that for a living.  Over the years I had tried to seek porn stars and see if I could find one for dating or marriage, but it never went very far and was never able to find one.  Instead of porn stars, I began to seek girls who had repudiations around town.  I dated a few, and 2 of them actually developed into long term relationships.  The girls I dated always slept around my back, it was just the kind of girls that they were, but I was never really able to get it to be this thing were they would fuck in front of me, or when I was around so the relationships always ended up failing.  

 

 

[Kaktuscpl]

What about now?Does your wife fuck others while you watch?