OMG UK_X, It was so hard not to cum while reading your account because you did such a great job at describing feelings that I also had with my wife. Early on in our marriage I had those exact impulses but I really was to jealous to really act on them. Now after 40 years of marriage I have even been asking my wife to cuckold me and the typical response from her is "You just want to justify fucking other women" I have told her that isn't the reason at all. I have been trying to convince her for two years now with little success. I am so envious of you to be able to ride that rollercoaster of emotions and want to buy a ticket on that attraction big time!