"No! I could say that I was drugged or drunk but I needed someone strong at the time and I was so in love with him that I let it all happen that night. There were other times when we got just as wild. I wish I had met you first, Joe. I feel so cheap and I don't deserve your love.""Don't talk that way. I am deeply in love with you or I would have walked out of here an hour ago when you told me about the herpes. By the way did you get it that night?"She answered, "No! Jack didn't have it yet. He got it from screwing Connie when I was gone home to KC for the holidays about 8 months later. She picked it up from fucking some intern at the hospital. Jack got a sore and got tested and I did too. My test was negative and he started taking the anti-viral drug and we used condoms until the drug had his under control.""Then how did you get it?""About a year later, I woke up one morning with an itch between my pussy and anus. By evening it had progressed to a burning and by bedtime I could feel the sore. I had moved into Jack's place after I got my Masters and I told Jack about it. He said matter-of-factly, 'Sounds like I gave you herpes.'"'What do you mean? You're on the medicine and it's under control. Isn't it?'"'Actually, I stopped taking it about six weeks ago,' he said rather sheepishly."I was pissed. 'You bastard! Why didn't you tell me? How could you fuck me without a rubber if you knew you could give me an incurable disease.' " He shouted back,'I didn't tell you because I knew you would make me use a rubber and I hate those things.'"That was the beginning of the end of our relationship. After that I knew that he was a selfish asshole that I would never trust again. It took about another 6 months for it to completely fall apart. That's when I came up to Jersey for my three month work detail with your group. I intended it as just a cooling off period until the renters moved out of my house, but you treated me as a professional and were so nice that I started to imagine that we could have a relationship. As the months went by you were so respectful and helpful about my career that I thought you weren't interested in me romantically."I interrupted, "I really wasn't until we were at that work-site near Niagara Falls and you said that you had never seen the Falls. I offered to take you there and while we were on the Canadian side at my favorite spot, right at the point where the water starts to fall, I looked into your eyes and knew I would fall in love with you. I fought the impulse for two months until you went back to DC and when we had dinner there in December, I knew I was in love with you."She looked at me with tears in her eyes and asked, "Do you still love me after what I have told you tonight?"I leaned over, put my arms around her, pulled her towards me and kissed her gently and we lay down on the bed. Our naked bodies touched for the first time since our 'coitus interruptus' of an hour before. I was intoxicated by the feel of her breasts on my chest and her soft thighs as they pressed into mine. We fell asleep in each other's arms and even though we didn't make love that night, I felt more intimacy lying with her like that than I had in the throes of our most passionate sex.When I woke up the next morning, Pam was awake staring at the ceiling. "A penny for your thoughts," I whispered.She answered, "I am worried about us after what I told you last night. Jack took advantage of me and I'm afraid you will do the same thing.""Do you think I am a sadistic bastard like Jack?" I replied."He is not really a sadist. He is much more complicated than that. Even though he used me sexually, he did broaden my pleasure horizons. As shocking as it might be I was really turned on by our kinky activities. When I think about them, I still get wet. The reason I broke it off was because I didn't trust him. I knew from the first that he would never be faithful to me but I could accept that. I thought we had a special relationship. I deluded myself into thinking that I was his real love and the rest were for his amusement. When he gave me herpes I realized that it was all about his pleasure. Still the sex was great.""What about us? Do you find our sex life unsatisfying?" I asked. I was beginning to worry that I couldn't compete."We don't just have sex, we make love. I can feel more than orgasmic pleasure. I can feel that we are sharing, that we are together. I have never felt that with anyone before." She answered."Not even your first two husbands?"She stopped looking at the ceiling, rolled over to face me, gazed into my eyes and answered, "Not to the degree that I do with you. With them the sex was more like it was with Jack, thrilling and physical, intensely satisfying but mostly without emotional connection. With you every time we make love I feel like we are almost uniting our minds as well as our bodies. It's a 'zen' thing. Do you feel the same thing?" I responded, "Yes! I thought that is what love is all about. For me that is what sex with a partner is all about. I have never been able to use a woman for sexual pleasure alone. If all I want is sexual release, I can jack off. It makes life less complicated. No one gets hurt. The sex drive can be the strongest human urge. In my sheltered life, I have seen what raw sex can do to people. I have seen it ruin marriages, ruin businesses, and even lead to suicides. I can see that your life has been deeply affected by it. You let Jack use yours to get you to do things that you didn't want to do." I had gotten preachy. Pam was a little angry with me for the moral lecture and reacted quickly, "Jack did not make me do anything that I didn't want to do at the moment. He may have taken advantage of my emotional state but it wasn't like he hypnotized or drugged me. I was a big girl and knew what was happening and I enjoyed it. If I had to do it again, I probably would." Her words stung me. I snapped at her. "Pam, do you mean you actually like doing all that kinky stuff? And knowing what you do know about the bastard that you would do it again?"She could see the anger in my eyes and reached up and tenderly touched my cheek and soothed me by saying, "Without all that happened with Jack we would not be together. Do you remember that we met three years ago at a conference in DC? Neither of us paid any attention to the other.""No. I don't remember meeting you before you came to work in Jersey. How do you remember?""The only reason that I remember was that Beth mentioned that your wife had died about a year before and that you might be on the dating scene soon and that she might like going out with you. She thought you were hot. As a matter of fact she still does. She told me she wouldn't mind a threesome, but I told her I wasn't sharing you with anyone.""I didn't know that Beth is into that. She seems so straight-laced."Pam said, "There's a lot you don't know about Beth. She is pretty wild sexually and was a regular 'prisoner' in Jack's dungeon. She still sees him at least once a week. She keeps telling me that he wants me to come over with her again." I was angry again. "What do you mean 'again'? Are you still seeing him when I'm back in Jersey?" She explained, "I went with her once. It was after work the first Friday after I came back to the office from my detail. You probably want to know what happened. So I'll tell you. When I came into work that morning, I was a little blue that nothing had happened romantically between us. Beth and I talked. I said, 'I had a feeling that Joe was interested in me but he acted so professionally while I was there that I am beginning to wonder if I am attractive enough. At times I wanted to throw myself at him and kiss him.'"Beth interrupted me, 'You should have stayed late in the office with him, closed the door, unzipped him and given him a blow job. That would have got his attention. That's what I would have done.'"I answered her sarcastically, 'That may work for you but I think I want more than a one-nighter with him.'"Beth responded good-naturedly, 'You're just horny! Have you had any cock since you went to Jersey?'"I answered, 'I tried the bar scene when I first got there but the guys there only seemed interested in the bar flies in their short mini-dresses. I didn't fit in.'Beth quipped, 'You didn't wear your prissy business skirt did you? You have your cute little black dress with the scoop neck that literally calls out," Fuck me!"'"'Actually, Beth, that dress is still at Jack's, and yes I wore my work clothes to the bar.'"'No wonder you didn't get laid. I never saw any woman who could hide her body like you can. So what did you do? Lie in your bed and fantasize about Joe screwing you?' Beth chided me."'Close. Most nights I kept busy reading and emailing friends but when I really got horny I "Jilled" myself while thinking about some of my past lovers.' I answered."Beth asked, 'Was Jack one of those fantasies?' "'More than a few times, I remembered how excited he would make me and it helped me cum. It was lonely up there at night and the memories of the great sex helped me.' I said."'I'm going to his place tonight to have some fun. Why don't you come with me and we'll make some of those fantasies real.' She said half jokingly."'No way!' I answered and she didn't press the issue.As the day went on, I kept thinking about her offer and I'll have to admit the temptation was more than I could resist and at about 4:00, I went to Beth's desk and asked, 'Is your offer for tonight still open? I don't want to horn in on your action if you want to be alone.'"She was overjoyed. 'It sure is. I told Jack that I invited you over and he was very disappointed that you said no. He has invited a few other friends over and when you come in with me, he'll flip.' "I was starting to get cold feet. 'Is this going to be one of his wild bondage parties tonight? If it is I really don't think I want to be one of their slaves.'"'Tonight is Sadie Hawkins night. The men have to do whatever the ladies want them to. It will be a lot of fun. You should come.' She was so convincing."The thought of what I would like to do to Jack flashed through my mind. Sadie Hawkins night sounded too good to miss. 'You convinced me. Do I need to go home and change into something more appropriate than this skirt, blouse, and jacket?'She looked me up and down with a frown on her face, 'The pants suit is a little too modest. But you said that your "little black dress" is at Jack's. You can change into it when we get there.'"'What are you wearing?' I asked."She motioned to the door of the conference room across from her desk and we went in and shut the door. 'I have a leather mini-skirt and bustier on under this dress. Wanna' see?' With those words she lifted her dress up revealing a very short mini skirt. She put her foot on a chair and I could see her black lace stockings and garter belt and her shaved, panty-less pussy."'You are ready for action aren't you. I really feel overdressed. If you are going "commando" then so will I.' I pulled up my skirt and took off my panties. 'I'll take off my bra at Jack's when I change into my black dress.' We smirked at each other and left the conference room. "I called my car-pool driver and told him I was staying late and that they should leave without me and Beth and I drove over to Jack's in her car. On the way Beth teased, 'You are overdressed. You should lose the bra and blouse before we get there and walk in wearing just the jacket and skirt. Jack will want to ravish you right there but you can tease him and tell him that it's ladies' choice and you want to see the other choices.'"I took her bait and on our way down the freeway, I stripped to the waist giving a free show to a semi-driver we were passing. He sped up to prolong his view and I even lifted my skirt and flashed him a little pussy before Beth sped away. He flashed his lights and blared his horn either in appreciation or disappointment. I'm not sure which.""When we arrived at Jack's at 6:30 pm, we were the first to arrive. Jack answered the door and he was very surprised to see me and reacted to my slutty outfit just as Beth had predicted in the car. It had been four months we had the big fight and I walked out. The next day he wrote me a letter telling me that it was over between us and said that we were not compatible sexually because I did not love oral sex either giving or receiving. Despite all of this nastiness I felt a twinge of desire to fuck him right there in the doorway. I resisted and as Beth had scripted I mentioned ladies' choice and I wanted to see the choices. He was visibly shaken by my response and stammered something about how he knew I would choose him. When I heard that, I thought to myself, 'We'll see about that.' "He turned his attention to Beth and he kissed her passionately and groped her reaching under her mini-skirt and approving of her nakedness sank to his knees and started to kiss and tongue her pussy. I knew what he was doing. He was showing me that my lack of enthusiasm for oral sex was not shared by Beth. I just turned and walked up to his guest bedroom where just as expected my black dress was still hanging in the closet. I took it off the hanger and put it on. When I looked in the mirror, I thought that Beth was right. It made me look sexy and did seem to say 'Fuck me!'"By the time I had come down several other guests had arrived and Jack and Beth were busy getting them drinks. By 7:30 the party was really going. There were 6 guys and 7 women, me being the extra, the others more or less paired up. Most of them were familiar to me from parties Jack and I had attended. Connie was there with her latest, an EMT she had met at the ER. It was ladies night in the dungeon and before long all of the men were handcuffed, tied or shackled. Jack was in the swing with his hands tied above his head. Each of us women were mercilessly arousing them not allowing them to cum. This went on for about an hour before Beth announced that each man would have to make a woman cum by the means that the woman chose but if the man came first he would have to spend the rest of the night tied to a chair watching. Each woman would choose the man she wanted. I piped in that I should choose last because I was alone. All of the women agreed. Connie chose first and she chose Jack. The others chose and I deferred for a few minutes. When the action started I noticed that Connie's EMT had a raging 8 inch hard-on while Beth was sitting on his face. I chose the hard-on and squatted on it and within a few minutes Beth and I were in the throes of intense orgasms.""You mean that you simply fucked this guy that you didn't know and came in a couple minutes?" I interrupted."Yes! I was so horny after all those months of rubbing my clit to get off, that the feel of a big thick cock in my pussy was indescribable. Is this upsetting you too much?" she countered.I thought for a few seconds. I was listening to my intended wife talk about actions that bordered on depravity. As disquieting as these episodes were, I needed to hear about them. "I don't want to be upset but I still want you to tell me everything!""Where was I?" she asked."You were telling me about you and Beth getting off on an EMT at Jack's party a few months ago.""Well Beth and I were the first women to cum and we looked around the room to see Connie with one end of a double dildo in her pussy with the other end in Jack's ass. Much to everyone's surprise Jack was cumming and Connie wasn't. She continued to fuck his ass for ten more minutes before she came at the same time he did for the second time. Jack protested that it wasn't fair Connie had cum but all of us women ganged up on him and pointed out that he had agreed and that he indeed did cum first. He had no choice and was tied to a chair in the corner facing the action. I seized the moment. He would have to watch me for the rest of the night. He was to see quite a show from me. I made up my mind to show him who he had spurned because she did not like oral sex enough. For the remainder of the party I took every opportunity to use my mouth or to be pleasured by someone else's. I gave blow jobs to four of the other five guys. I let all five eat my pussy and even came a few times. Connie and I did a hot sixty-nine which culminated with both of us cumming as we ate each other while using dildoes on one another. All of the women even did a daisy chain while all of the men had to watch. Each time I would look defiantly over at Jack whose face displayed that he was totally astonished by my wantonness and that he was frustrated by not being able to participate. The rest of the guests started to leave and by 11:30, only Beth and I remained. Jack was still tied to the chair and was complaining that as each couple left the woman would take his cock in her mouth and give him a few quick licks, enough to keep him hard but not much more. 'I need to come or my balls are going to explode,' he pleaded to Beth and me.
"Beth and I looked at each other and smiled. I said, "I will take care of that!' With that I went over to Jack knelt in front of him, took hold of his cock, opened my mouth and started to flick my tongue hard on the under-side of his cockhead. I then took the whole head of his cock in my mouth and rotated my tongue around it and sucked hard on it. He started to clench his fists as he was about to cum but I abruptly pulled away, got to my feet and I quipped ironically, 'I don't really like oral sex, giving or receiving,' as I walked away."Beth said mercifully, 'Game is over. I'll finish him!' With that she went to the chair slung her leg over him, inserted his swollen cock into her pussy and rode him to their almost simultaneous orgasms. I say almost because I am pretty sure that for the second time in the evening that gentleman did cum first."Beth and I both spent the night at Jack's, me in the guest bedroom and Beth in bed with Jack. I fell asleep feeling satisfied with myself for showing Jack what he would be missing but a little depressed that I had to act like such a slut to do it. The next morning I was awakened by familiar touch on the inside of my naked thighs. The fingers were starting to move toward my pussy. I moaned unconsciously until I realized who it was. Jack had got up and come into the guest room with pay back on his mind. I roughly took his hand and moved it away almost shouting, 'Jack, it's over between us. It has been for months.'"Jack argued, 'We had such great time together! Lots of fun! Great sex! Can't we have that again?'"'I won't ever be used by you again. You only wanted me for a sex partner. That's all you want now!' I was getting mad at his attitude that he could have me for sex without any emotional involvement."He admitted it. 'You have to admit that the sex was great. You never complained about that. Did you? Let's have some more fun together!'"Again I raised my voice. 'I have to have more than just debauchery. I want a relationship based on love and trust. You don't. It's over.'My loud voice must have woken up Beth because she came in the room bleary eyed and asked what the trouble was. I told her, 'I was trying to tell Jack that he and I are finished and he won't believe me.'Beth looked at us both and laughed, 'Looking at you two naked in bed together, it doesn't look like it's over, but, judging from what Pam has told me for the past few months, Jack, you better believe that it is over as far as she is concerned. Let's have breakfast!'"Beth's wit seemed to be successful in conveying to him the idea that I had been trying to get through to Jack. He seemed to accept that it was never going to be the same between us. We all got dressed and went out for breakfast at the local diner. After breakfast we returned to Jack's and I gathered up the few things I had left at Jack's a few months before and Beth drove me home."I picked up on something Pam had just said. "You said Jack seemed to accept that you were though with him. What did you mean 'seemed'?" "Even though I broke it off three months ago, he is still calling me. He has those porn tapes of me and is threatening to show you if I don't continue to see him.""Have you seen him?""No! But he is insisting that I see him for old-time's sake on Thursday, two days before our wedding. He says he will give me the tapes then. I have agreed to go to his place but I'm afraid of what will happen. I don't think he will really give me the tapes. I don't know what to do.